Not as bad as it was at first. I'm getting stronger, but my shell is getting thicker. I'm going to be a lot happier in the long run. It's going to be nice to be in a relationship with someone who actually loves me who I can trust. It's a ways down the road, but it will happen in God's time. I feel like I still have some loose ends to tie with Tyler, but I have also decided that I could get away with leaving things the way they were. He has my TomTom. I guess I still have my iPhone with GoogleMaps. I have tons of his stuff, too. So I guess we're even?
The next guy is going to be a little more like this (these things are the OPPOSITE of Tyler):
-His relationship with God a dominant part of his life.
-His drinking habits won't bring conflict to our relationship.
-He respects me enough not to lie to me (or my family, or HIS family)...
-He cares about his health, is active, and eats smart.
-He spends more quality time with me that any one of his friends.
-He doesn't let that particular friend do/say inappropriate things to me.
-He doesn't just want to lay around and watch TV all the time.
-If he does get drunk (rare), he actually treats me like a human being.
-Talking about our future isn't taboo.
***Bonus points if he likes to run.
This guy definitely exists. I've started praying for him. I'll find find him. Actually, he'll find me. Hopefully I'll be ready when he comes along...